The end of 2012 and the begining of 2013.....

2012 has not been my good year on many counts and to explain it i am going to write by each month what happened during that month

so it all began on january 2012 i had a very odd feeling in the back of my mind that things were not going to go so well but during the month of january it seemed to be fine i was with my fiance then and we were still living in our own house i actually had so much happiness that month.

February was also a good month because that is my fiance birthday month i made him a cake that month for his birthday and also for valentines day but also on that month was his decision that he had to move back to america to get money... in new zealand we are just a small island by the way there isn't that many jobs in his career part and so that month we decided to get tickets to america me having to go for the tourism visa.....but i am working on a different visa to live there with him well trying... anywhom so that was that month

March was a huge month we had to start packing our house which i know i had a house at 21 i can hear some jealous sounds from people... but believe me packing a whole house is so hard lol.... and that was why it was huge that month more and more it became a reality that soon i would be in america i was nervious but happy because it was travelling which i love to travel and it was a whole new country but march was a huge month because of packing a whole house....

April This was the month that i remember been on the plane so excited for the whole new experience of been in america a whole new chapter for my fiance and i and i was actually really happy when landing i had no idea what i was installed for though... new zealand is not like america at all lol i landed in LAX international airport with serious jet lagg.... i remember though it was nice and warm when i got there and it was a beautiful sunny day.... we went straight to santa monica and slept at a hotel there.... Then the next day i was lucky enough to take a walk to the pier which was not to far away from my hotel.... most hotels in santa monica are not to far away from the pier.... so we went for a walk there and i got to have my first experience been in a crowed of americans and while at the same time i looked at the pacific ocean been all on the other side is new zealand lol then the next day i got to go to disneyland which was completely exciting i really loved the lollypops they had there i couldn't stop eating them they were so good lol and we went for the whole day unfortunately i didn't get mickey mouse ears but they had plenty of them for sale and i should of got a pair i went on alot of rides too space mountain had to be the most epic ride but the rides like peter pan alice in wonderland and rides like that are also memories ^^.... then acouple of days after that we flew on jet blue to Boston we flew on a red eye i remember that well because when they woke us up they had dunkin doughnut coffee ready and waiting for us then not to long after that we landed in boston (which is very beautiful from a plane) and we went to one of my fiances friends house he is a nice guy and for afew days he took us to some nice little towns and that is as much as i remember of april there was alot that happened that month.

May The begining of may we got fiances truck which is a dodge XD ive never driven something with so much power as a dodge but we had a huge driving experience from Massachuette's state to new york state.... it was a huge experience.... i also was able to sneek into a bar at night with my fiance and a friend i was 20 and i got in before the security guy came so that was good XD.  this month was a huge driving month and i learn't alot about driving in america and on an interstate.... as crazy as it seems i actually enjoyed driving on the interstate lol.... going through massachuette's reminded me of england but it was in america maybe that is why it has another name new england XD.  Then heading into new york state to meet my fiance family.... this was late april.... first i met his aunty which she was very snobby towards me she didn't really have anything plesant to say to me which got me really upset in the end my fiance and i decided to leave.... and we slept in a hotel for acouple of days he showed me around the area's that he went too growing up and i learn't alot more about my fiance..... then we headed more down to where his mother and step father live.... which is an hours drive away from new york city and that was the begining of where the trip started going down hill.... his mother even though we told her for months that i was coming there which new zealand is a 14 hour trip to america we told her that i was coming and she was all excited on the phone but when i got to her front door she did not care one bit .... she was more interested in the tv.... and she started getting really angry at her son my fiance in the end i remember crying and leaving the house thinking to myself i never want to see his mother and step father again such evil people they are but we left there also and again he showed me his growing up area which was the most meaning full part of the trip....


June.... this month was the most upsetting month for me i which i could turn back time on this month... so first off in a small town some stupid idiot hit the back of my fiance's truck while we were parked on the side of the road you know cliped the side of the dodge and it was such an impact i feel unconcious but i did have my seat belt on even though we had the vechile parked and turned off and we were looking at a map.... this silly idiot hit the side of our dodge and i went unconcious i was in the drivers seat and someone called 911 and i went to the near by hospital.... i woke up and saw my fiance crying by myside and he keept saying i ruined your trip i ruined your trip im sorry im sorry!!!.... that made me feel so loved because he cared about me i only stayed in the hospital for 7 hours and left that afternoon and we stayed at another friend of my fiance's who he looked after us for awhile but then he also started turning nasty for some reason but through the whole stress i got so upset and i took my engagement ring off and left it on my pillow and went back to the airport near by back to boston then LA then back home.... i was so stressed....and upset and i wish i didn't do that i love my fiance so much he is still my fiance... and he still loves me but i which i stayed.... anyway i returned back home with mockery from my father saying i wasn't meant to be back till july and i sleept for like a week afterwards lol.

July I woke up been in my room but still had jet lag alot of this month was just trying to get back into new zealand time zone lol

August... nothing really happened that month...

September nothing really special

October... Was the month i turned 21 lol  ugh i  just remembered wanting it to be a normal day i was feeling really upset about how i left my fiance.... i felt really bad that month even though it was my birthday month...

November... I got back into my zumba and my drawing that month

and december this month has gotten me upset aswell since i didnt have my fiance here for christmas it didn't feel like christmas but i did enjoy my mothers amazing baking lol.... and am now just awaiting for 2013...

So 2012 has been a bad month for me because i have made a ton of mistakes... i really hope it changes in 2013 even though it was my fault i left....


here's hoping everyone has a wonderful 2013!

and that is my journal of my year for 2012!

Pie-Chan